DRIFTED APART!!
hoping things would be better then before.
she misses you.
she's hoping to meet you again.
waiting for the date & day.
KEEHEE!!
bad habit of mine, as usual woke up late. grr!! i seriously wanna get rid of this habit. seriously. ate my "breakfast cum lunch", watch "BBF" esp 24. ohmy!! its saddening. woohoo!! "BBF" esp 25 is gonna release soon. && its the final esp i guess. woo!! happy ending. meet up with jaslin, vincent & margaret at jaslin hse. reach there ard 4plus. sorrysorry guys was reallyreallly late. sorry. slacked & chit-chat. there's just so much to catch up with each other. heee.
have dinner at a nearby coffeeshop. some foods the standard kinda bad. not being bad but seriously some foods dun taste as delicious. meet jaslin under her block. chit-chatted. then she went back home. sadsad. so fastt. while the 3 of us continue chatting till ard 10plus. didn catch the "housewives holiday [if im not wrong]", last esp today. heee. nvm, its okays. then home sweet home. thanksthanks vincent fo accompanying me to mrt station. thankyou. sorrysorry trouble u walk so far. enjoyed myself with 3 dearest frens of mine. (:
big pimple pop rite at my nose. ):
plspls cure quickly.
i seriously wanna go for a facial treatment.
sounds funny huh.
HEEHEE!!
sighh. kinda pissed.
come back home;
heard you knock here & there.
i kindly ask you to stop knocking, please.
thankyou.
haixx.
nothing seems to improve as each day passes.
hoping that things would be better.
but i dun noe why its just simply so hard.
i try & try to forgive & forget.
but i dun noe wat shld i start saying.
am i bad..
seriously, wat is happening to me.
SOME HATES CAN NEVER BE ERASE!!
trying real hard to forgive & forget but i do need lots&lots of times.
pardon me. sorrysorry.
heh heh!! now at jaslin's hse, blogging. went out with jaslin & vincent. as usual woke up late again. ohmy!! overslept again!! prepare & off to meet them at aljunied. cab down to the place. was still kinda early so went to grab a bite. then off to the place.
jaslin got prepare while vincent & me slacked ard. && the sad thing is i kinda bully by him till very bad. HAHAHA!! ard 5plus left the place & off to jaslin's hse. had "mac" for dinner. now slacking & chit-chatting at jaslin's hse. enjoyed my day with this 2 dearest frens. the roxxs my day!! HAHAHA!! spend my entire day with them. (:
i seriously yearning to go for a facial treatment. (:
sounds weird huh.
HAHAHEHE!!
mood is freaking bad & down.
i really got nothing much to say.
di di dislike me, daddy & mummy i guess also dislike me.
& now u actually push all the blame to me??!!
okays fine!! im everything bad, you happy??!!
i guess in the 1st place i shldn't have exist.
tired&tired.
plspls take me farfar away.
i seriously need a break.
HOW I WISH TIMES WOULD REMAIN AS A STANDSTILL!!
hoping tat times would never pass so quickly...
its sunday!! as usual suppose to go church & grandma hse de. but end up both i didn went as woke up really late. ohmy!! sorrysorry. guess grandma hse is getting quieter & quieter. haixxx. will try to go next week. rotting at home with mei & di di. slacked ard doing nothing. pathetic huh. is there anything i can do...?? i dying from boreness. HAHAHAHA!! seriously i hope there something i can do now. later mayb going grandma hse mayb not. see how first. heee.
had late lunch. didn went to grandma hse as wasn't feeling tat well. head hurt like mad. the pain just dun seems to disappear. haixxx. wat's going on with me... sighh. shagshag. ): watch "eragon". had late dinner. daddy & mummy bought back dinner. thankyou. lovesslovess. (:
im craving for cookies. (:
im yearning to watch "confession of a shopaholic" & "hotels for dogs". (:
WALKING AHEAD & NEVER LOOKING BACK!!
im happy for you.
she simply misses you.
its saturday!! as usual im suppose to meet up deardear frens but guess we're all kinda busy so guess was postpone. kinda weird didn meet up with deardear frens. heee. rot at home. woke up freaking late today. ate my "breakfast + lunch". bloated. slacked ard till 6.30+pm. took a short nap as was feeling extremely exuasted. && dun noe why dun have the strength to do anything. seriously, wat is happening to me... got preapare & off to TM for dinner with family. guess wat only 4 of us, daddy, mummy, di di & me. sis have work while mei out wth her frens. pathetic huh. all of the sudden. head hurt like mad. painpain. sighh. haixx. something cropped up. went home alone. tears drip while on the way home. ):
mood is damn down.
i dun noe wat shld i say.
guess im not so fortunate as i thought.
everything seems different now.
everything changes too.
today, i have lose myself.
WHEN WILL IT BE MY TURN!!
waiting patiently for the time to come...
she misses you.
she try letting go.
but she cant.
she simply cant forget you.
HOHOHO!!
things seems better but another prob just cropped up. haixx. communication with daddy is disappearing. just dun feel like talking to him after wat happen last nite. wat i say, all i get from you was scolding & shouting. i guess i really shld shut my mouth & not say a single words another or simply just be a mute. after last nite, everything towards you seems to changed. i really dun noe wat shld i do, wat shld i say. im tiredd. sooner or later im gonna break down.
went back to sch today for some admin stuffs. meet up with jaslin at simei station. hahaha!! she 1st time overslept, 1st time meet me at simei. (saw tat) hahaha!! reach sch kinda early. meet up with afiqah & her sis, hui wen, syahidah & her mum in sch. did some admin work, photo taking (hope it turn out nicee) & bought uniforms. i look weird & funny in tat uniforms. hahahaha!! train back to aljunied. then cab down to clementi. as jaslin just came back from chalet so didn manage to get some forms sign.
cab back to aljunied. ohmy!! jaslin & me nearly meet an accident. its really scary. we both were like !!! just a little closely. lucky. if the accident really happen, i guess im now in the hospital or might be injuried. *touchwood* toking craps. had our lunch. slacked ard till 2pm. meet up with vincent & yalan. shhhhhhhh. heees. sorrysorry. slacked then home sweet home. have "punggol nasi lemak" for dinner. delicious. you shld try it too. thankyou mummy. lovesloves. enjoyed my day today. (:
IM TURNING CRAZILY SOON!!
stress&stress. i seriously need a break.
she misses you.
she hope she could msg you days & nites like before.
&& tell her story, craps & jokes to you like before.
KEEHEE!! (:
everything seems different, everyone seems to be changing. everything seems changed in just a second ago. sighsigh. shagshag. mood sux big time today, head hurt like mad. everything comes & go, up & down. wat is becoming of me. feeling seems like dying soon. hahaha!! weird me wat am i toking abt. lmao!! woke up super late tonite, woke up got a freaking bad headache.
had fried rice again for "breakfast + lunch" plus spring rolls made by mummy. mummy's spring rolls is delicious!! watch tv till ard 3plus, slacked ard. got prepare & off to meet mummy & di di at aljunied. cab down to hougang mall. had pepper lunch for dinner. thankyou mummy, lovesloves. shopshop ard.
then off to daddy dialysis centre. waited for daddy to end his dialysis. then home sweet home. enjoyed myself my mummy & di di. woohoo!! tmr will be heading back to school for some admin work & getting sch uniforms. kinda excited abt the uniforms. heee!! (:
moodless.
dun feel like doing anything now.
tears keep on dripping.
help me, save me!!
who understands me..
all u do is just scold & shout at me.
who i am to you...
starting to hate you more&more...
HAPPINESS & SADNESS!!
she misses you.
&& she cant wait to bully you. (saw tat)
HAHAHAHA!! ;p
all the best to those going cross country tmr.
jia yo jia yo!!
lucks to all of u!!
spend my day with 2 deardear frens of mine!! [:
they roxss & brightens my day. thankyou.
well.. things seems to get slightly better now. atleast now i did talk to daddy properly. happyhappy. hopefully as times passes wound would fully recover. woke up early today, prepare fried rice for my "breakfast/lunch". bloated!! off to aljunied to meet up with ya lan & vincent.
off to bugis first, headed to "bras basar" to get our stuffs. shhh. heees. took quite long to get our stuffs. then off to douby gauht, have "lunch/teabreak" at KFC. not hungry but feel like eating. weird me. hahaha!! off to look for something. shhh. hahahaha!! woohoo, finally got most of the stuffs. let's get started with our "plan". hohoho!! ;p
train back to aljunied. way crowded. its best try not to take the train at ard 5.30-8..?? cos its kinda packed at tat moment. hahaha!! slacked ard at aljunied platform then home sweet home. enjoyed myself today with tis 2 deardear frens of mine!! && sad things is i kanna bully by vincent for nearly the whole day. ): hahaha!! ;p
YOU'RE ALL SHE EVER NEEDA NOW!!
she's simply missing you sooooo much...
hasn't been talking properly with daddy for quite a number of days. its alll a misunderstanding but i just dun noe how to start & wat to say. hopefully everything will be alrite asap. well, last nite nearly cant sleep well, as ytd afternoon i drank coffee. hahaha!! sound weird huh, drink coffee cant sleep well. i guess tat only happen to me. heeee!!
spend my afternoon watching "BBF" esp 22. ohmy!! im really wayyy in love with this drama. so romantic, sweet & touching. do try watching this drama. guess you're will be in love with it too. waiting for esp 23 to be out. cant wait. heee. ohmy!! i have been drinking plentyplenty of water starting ytd nite. as yuan ting say drinking lots&lots of water can help prevent pimples & so on... is it true?? currently doing nothing much but slacking. tat's me. hohoho!! ;p
school will be offically starting on 13 april, monday.
just 2-3 more weeks to go.
indeed times passes really fastt.
4 months plus & now left 2-3 more weeks.
the sky is simply beautiful.
isn't it..
PLEASE DON'T GO!!!
where are you...
she's been missing you sooo...
she's been waiting for you...
oh boy, i miss you sooo...
my mind is fill with your image, your smile & soo.
i wish you were just by my side rite now...
how i wish i could see you face rite now...
spend my day with 2 darlings & 2 new frens.
enjoyed myself with them to the maxxie.
ohya, didn went to grandma's hse today.
sorrysorry.
pardon me.
try to turn up next week.
went to church early, as mum, sis & me was on duty today. sis didn went as she wasn't feeling tat good. takecare, get well soon, sis. help out in kids service [superlife]. difference programs today. its was some "quizs" activities. funfun. have "dun forget your lyrics" too, but differen version. today i was sort of alone in the grp, kinda of awrkurd as its my 1st time alone & i dun noe wat to do. but slowly im "high". hahaha!! had de-brief then off we went.
have "mini" teabreak. waited for daddy, then off for service, worship & sermon was GREAT!! laughters all the way. sermon was interesting too. home sweet home after tat. wash up, got prepare & went to meet jaslin & yalan. as usual i was late a few mintues. pardon me for my lateness as was kinda rush i guess.. hee. but still sorry gurls keep you gurls waiting. trained down to "marsiling". chatted alots & still there's still lots to catch up with you gurls.
collected our stuffs. happyhappy. then off to look for foods as yalan & me was kinda hungry. ate some "ready make" foods. noth really full. then waited for jaslin & yalan's frens. off to vivo. ate, walkwalk & we play a tricky game. lose must do forfeit. && guess wat im did most of the forfeit. arghargh!! but its was funnn. then there's one/two forfeit seems interesting. HAHAHAHA!! ;p
catch a movie a 7.30pm. its COMING SOON!! its so scary & its freaking me out. hahahaha!! wondering will i be abel to sleep/sleep well tonite. pray real hard i will. heeee!! had "macdonald" dinner. then home sweet home. well, today was a really funn day out. enjoyed myself plenty plenty with you guys. thankyou for making my day. (:
GIVING UP!!!
the moment i really feel like giving up myself...
is giving up the best choice...
she's been longing for you...
i really wonder if...
im gone from this family i guess there won't be any difference either.
im soooo tired.
i really need a break.
oh plsss, let me go & take me farfar away.
im sorry for being such a lousy daughter.
im sorry for being so useless, hopeless & brainless.
im really sorry for everything.
guess watever i do, to your im always wrong never rite!!
sometime i wonder shld i feel happy or not;
shld i feel lucky;
shld i be glad;
shld i feel contented with wat i have;
or shld i feel sad instead...
i really dun noe.
totally confused & lost!!
i need the answer.
finding my way back.
holding back my tears,
but it seems tat it keep dripping...
im breaking down.
holding back my tears is just so painful & hurtful.
sorrysorry readers for my emo entries today, really sorry.
pardon me. sorrysorry.
woke up early today. woohoo!! didn overslept. tat's a good sign. improvement in progress. thanks daddy, mummy, sis & jaslin for waking me up. thankyou!! hahaha!! got prepare & everything. waited for daddy & mummy to bring breakfask back. ard 10.30am, then they are back. quickly have my breakfast then daddy fetch me to "aljunied" station. thankyou!!
was alittle late. sorrysorry gurls. waited for jaslin, joycelyn & vincent thn off to "aljunied" platform to find sherman. heee. sorrysorry was late for 30mins. off to "YCK [yio chu kang]", find jaslin & joycelyn's dad. have carrot cake & nasi lemak. thanks jaslin & joycelyn's dad. && thanks jaslin & joycelyn's uncle for the drinks. thankyou!! discuss where shld we go next. after some hard thinking back to jaslin's hse to play mahjong. actually wanna go cycling but decided not.
ohya, saw kai ling on the way back,
say hello & chatted awhile.
sorrysorry guys abt today.
im sorry abt my mood, mayb it havae spoil the day or mood.
but im really sorry.
still i enjoyed myself with u guys to the maxxie!!
played mahjong till 5.50pm. slacked & chatted ard. ard 6.20pm, have steamboat dinner. thanks jaslin & joycelyn's mum for the dinner. thankyou!! the steamboat is really delicious. sadsad cant stay till quite late, as going out with family. went to "PP [parway parade]". have dinner at foodcourt. i accidentally spilled a bowl of laska. its embrassing. haixx. something really upset happened. i really dun noe wat shld i say. bus & train back home alone. enjoyed myself with deardear frens. funn things happen, laughters all the way. but something cropped up. cheer up gurls!! (:
"TRUST" IS THE WORDS!!
being honest & frank is important.
she's been waiting for you days & nites.
manymany memories strike me today...
im misses those memories badly...
how i wish i could turn the clock back...
after 4 - 4 1/2 months of holidays;
left 3 more weeks to school reopen.
shld i feel excited or not...???
actually today planned to go out;
but i guess bcos of me it was postponed.
sorrysorry gurls.
really sorry abt it.
rotting at home the entire day as usual. woke up late again. gosh!! i seriously need to get rid of tis "habit". seriously is a must!! hahaha!! slacked ard. have my "breakfast + lunch". ohmy!! recently i have been having "unhealthy" meal. sooner or later i guess im gonna fall sick!! cannot cannot, i must stop eating "unhealthy" foods. heee. time to watch my diet & the foods i take.
did nothing for the entire afternoon. i have to walked ard the hse wondering wat shld i do. hahaha!! but still i did some "small things". heee. till ard 5.30pm, watched tv. heee. actually planned to go have dinner with family but sadsad some cropped up. shall not state. haiixx. just feeling kinda fed-up & pissed but feeling much better now. didn join them so stayed at home watch tv till now, then came online. tat's how i spend my day. 1 words : boring!!!
yeayea!! tmr will be out with deardear frens for the entire day i guess. cool!! hopefully we'll enjoyed ourself to the maxxie!! after 3 days rotting at home, im finally out!! yippeee!! (:
DAYS & TIMES ARE JUST SO LIMITED & PRECIOUS!!
treausre wat you have before it's really too late.
tell your love how much you love him/her.
she's been thinking abt you days & nite.
rotting at home the entire day. have been waking up kinda late recently. arghargh!! i seriously needa get rid of tis laziness of mine. seriously. hee. woke up, cooked my "breakfast+lunch". fried rice again. i really got no idea wat shld i eat. i badly wanna learn to cook mre dishes. who can teach me..??
slacked ard after tat. took a short nap, woke up did house chores. ohmy!! i realised just sweeping & mopping the floor is sort of tiring. some sort like after jogging. heee. feel better after doing those house chores. funnn!! watch tv till ard 11pm. then came online. tat's how i spend my dayyie. sort of boring. heee. hopefully tmr wont be as boring as today. (:
alrite ending off with some pictures.
recent pictures tat i've been wanting to upload.
sorrysorry for the delay.
here they are...
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US!! (:
left to right.
ME, afiqah & yuying.
I LOVES THEM!!
