ALOHA :D

~~the old amanda is gone & dead nvr will be coming back again.....~~

today everything is like normal school day ya lesson all are normal ya...but think cry until gt sore throats ya thanks buddy but dun need buy for me honey la....i will be fine soon...sad gt stomach pain very long le...haiish=( nvm bare with it....

to her ~ ya i noe how u are feeling right now but if u think i shld nt care abt you anymore then i gt to say this from now on i will nvr write letter nor care abt you nor sms you nor call you....but if u think u have too much problems u can always ask god and seek help from him ya...i noe u have problems too but did u noe how many problems i have too...im sick and tired of everything le but if u think tat is the way you wan things to turn out i really got nothing to say cos if i carry on to live in this world there will be more troubles....so i dun wish...fine if u find me irritating and when even when i call you yestersday u dun even wan to answer my call im fine...maybe without me in your life things will be better.....ya im foolish and stupid all i noe is die right but even if i die you no need cry nor feel pressure cos maybe this frenship have hurt you alot so i can say if u think i shld nt care abt you anymore then u oso dun need to care abt me le whether i die or live is all my problems no need feel sad for such a foolish person like me...if there is fate and there is chance maybe we will patch back but if nt then forever will nvr....fine if u think u need to think abt it i give u time and i oso hope things will be fine soon for us....i cry because it really hurt alot inside my heart and i hope i cry i will feel better but you are thinking i cry to sabo you fine i gt nthing to say.....you always think tat u hurt more but im telling u now i think i hurt more then u do....whenever u always say dun care abt you did u ever think of me i wan to show care and concern yet u reject me fine if all this is wat u wan in life from now on i will grant it and i will nvr bother u nor care abt you anymore...

dun worry the old amanda you noe is dead in this world...dun worry she will nvr find you nor disturb you from today on....and i oso gt to say this i nvr thought of quarreling with you but is all your thinking....the post entry is just to tell you not hurt you cos i hardly have time to talk to you so i post instead but if u think in the negative way i really got nothing to say...maybe the fate for me is nt to be in this class and this world...ya im so foolish but did u ever thought how im feeling right now...you noe yesterday when i call you at 8pm no one answer i am really panic you noe i call u so many times but not ones time u answer me...you noe now i feel like a bad fren is like everyone dun even wan to talk to me nor check clearly first and anyhow blame me...

ya im admit is part of my fault too but if u really treasure this precious frenship of ours you will nvr treat me like this...... and if u wan to patch back tis frenship of ours you will answer my call and talk to each other face to face but you seem to be escaping from this problems..but i dun think you will...im saying this cos im having loads of problems right now...and no one understand how i feel....

im really sick and tired i dun wish it will effect my studies but it seem to be....ok lo...i have enough..but when u think its the right time and feel tat we shld patch up then you just tell me i wont blame u and if i feel tat its time too then i will tell you...ok...maybe its the fate tat i shld nt have any fren and hurt them le maybe i shld be alone from now on?? sad....im confused i really dun noe who is wrong or right??? but anyway it was all my great time tat i have with you for 3 and the half year..really lovess all this time i have together with you...ya...so i hope things wil be better soon..i really hope the time can go back s things will be fine soon...i hope this was a dreams instead of the fate....anyway im sorry if i have hurt you but pls dun get the wrong thinking...jus sharing all my sorrows out ya...sorry for everything...

putting a smile everyday

learn to forgive and forget

trying to stay happy

~~wont be happy and smiling like before but if she is smiling she will be just putting a fake smile on...~~

~~and she is gone means gone nvr ever ever will be back.......~~

promise wont say die again (if i say scold me ok)

i will try not to say die le but if frens your heard me say die must scold me or wake me up...ya i allow your....and im a new person that have just come into this world...

if you wan go arts nite go lo dun becasue of the stupid and lousy amanda tat make u change your mind...

thanks everyone for your concern ya...

thanks mum for your comforting words ya...sorry if i make u worry and sad for me sorry mum but i promise tat i will be strong and change into a better person to make u feel happy...mum your the best and thanks for the listening ear....=) i will listen to you de.....promise....

IM STRONG!!!!

IM A NEW PERSON NOW!!!

I ADMIT IS MY FAULT TOO!!!

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