yesterday ya went to white sands to have dinner then want walk then head to aunt hse to take something then head home....when reach home quickly do my secret things ya do until quite late and den abt 10.30pm then bath so late la...then pack my bag to make it lightly and then the secret things was done then head to bed then i give her le hope she like it ya...abt 1.30am then sleep sad ya....ok shall stop here...
1st Day of Term 3
today went to school..ya school was so so la..haha able to see all my dear friends le so miss them during the holiday haha finally but now i miss holiday mood so much...haha lesson was as normal...first was maths did a worksheet on radius , circumference, arc and so on...ya quite easy la but must rmb the formula..ya did nt do finish ya leave a few question cause some dun noe how to do...ya then later gt eoa lesson ya went to the eoa room cause our class is suppose to decorated the eoa room like an office ya...we were given two weeks to finish it...ya then next period was english..we were doing some reading abt a new tat have recently happen ya...then we are suppose to do it and hand up by tmr (think so)...ya then we have recess then after recess we have cpa but did nt do much thing we watch a video abt database management then we have to do a worksheet ya quite thick but did nt do much ya...then at 12.40pm went home ya...walk to mrt station with kimberly ya then i head home ya...then went to buy burger king for lunch ya then head home lo....ya
today i was really terribly sad i was crying in class...maybe cause i feel left out...is nt i always pick on you and wan to quarrel with you but is tat i feel tat i just wan to improve our friendship better but it seem tat i hardly tok you le...i wanted to change into a better person and treat you better but i hardly have a chance now...i just dun noe what have happen to me or this friendship of us become like this??? whenever i give others a chance to talk to you i will feel terribly hurt but when i dun give others a chance ppl might think im selfish as your think but honestly i wan to change into a better person to prove to you but now is like i hardly get a chance...is like the old is gone and the new has come....i really dun noe what to do??? but do you feel how hurt im right now???? i dun noe whether i have make the right choice or nt??? maybe is my wild thinking....but i just can feel like there is a deep wound in my heart tat needs to be cure by only one person tat can cure it and tat is you....can we just be best sister from now on and promise nt to quarrel again??? can we?? all my mind now thinking is maybe is time for me to left this world le...maybe i got to go le and i shld nt be exist in this world...i really have changed tat i learn to think postively but is nt i wan to think negatively but is just tat i can feel tat hurt and feel tat is happening to me right now......i just hope i really hope i can have a TRUE fren and tat is you but are you willing to be my TRUEFUL best sister???? can we?? i am nt blaming you or scold you is just tat i feeling terribly hurt in my heart tat i must spilt all my sorrows out.....because it really hurt alot but only you can cure it....
darling ~ im sorry if its my fault but is just tat it really hury deeply and i have no one to tok or share my problems with so i have to spilt it all out ya sorry not blaming you...and i oso dun wish to lost a very precious sister like you....pls dun leave my alone to solve my problems pls....stay by my side....and hope you like the present ta i give you.....loves ya...=)
buddy ~thanks for the encourgement and thks for the company and comfort...thanks so much buddy...lovess ya too...=)
IM DEAD IN THE INSIDE!!!
feel like crying now....
a gurl who is terribly hurt....=(
IM SORRY!!! PLS FORGIVE ME PLS...!!!
SORRY FOR BEING SUCH A LOUSY FREN!!! SORRY!!
back for posting ya play com for very very long ya then mummy brought back dinner then have dinner ya then the hse agents came to see our hse ya..then later at 9pm do my homework and write letter ya...then pack bag then now using com but i will be sleeping soon ya..shall stop here try to post tmr if i can...
[ya i gt to say this fight for your right when u are right and admit when u are wrong....fine i dun mind ur hurting words but it really hurt me alot and i cry for the whole afternoon do u noe and i noe is my fault too ya i admit is my fault too but when i wanna tell u or explain to u did u ever give me a chance too explain to u before hurting me with ur hurting words and blaming me tat im scold or saying you??? is nt i wan to blame u or say u but i feel tat the wound im having right now is getting deeply and deeply so if it get even deeply pls dun stop me.....cos its over my limit....ya i admit is my fault at the first place...ya if u think im the one who is starting this problems and causing it jus say so....ya everytime we quarrel is surely my fault cos is no one fault already so jus put all the fault to me cause im the devil who is hurting and causing everything to get worse...fine i really gt nothing to say...maybe u think we be normal friends is better then best fren ok fine i will grant ur wish....watever u think im a bad or lousy fren jus say or post in ur blog...cause maybe tat the best way for u to feel better....ya i noe i have attitude problems but did u ever help me or encourage me or comfort me or tell me??? did u? i wan to change into a better person did u encourage me and support me??? i noe all i have say has hurt u but did anyone spare a thought for me??? im confused??? who can help me?? i hope things will get back to normal soon but im sure it will nvr ever cos.....]
ming yuan, ya lan, kai ping ~ thanks for all of ur comfort and encouragement ya i will try to cheer up de...ya pray to god for help thanks guys...thanks for the listening ear too...will always rmb it for life...thanks guys...=) thanks guys lovess ya...
cousin ~ thks for the encourgement and comfort ya feeling much better le...haha nvr thought tat u also will comforted ppl de haha thks i will cheer up de ya....i will try nt to be an emo le...thks so much...=)
I WILL BE STRONG FOR YOUR SAKE!!!
I ADMIT IS PART OF MY FAULT TOO!!!
FEELING SLIGHTY BETTER LE!!!
THANKS EVERYONE!!!
LOVESS YA GUYS!!!
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