BEFORE
back to post ya fine if u think im tat kind of fren then i oso dun noe wat to do??fine if u wan me to leave tis friendship with u then u will be the world happiest gurl i will do it.fine if u always think im the BAD GURL i really gt nothing to say....jus treat it as AMANDA is already DEAD N BURY in the GRAVEYARD le.....fine if u always think im blaming u i really think i rather die then be with anyone n add BURDEN TO THEM...yupp GOD make the WRONG decision for creating a BAD gurl like me into tis world..yupp how i wish i was nt EXIST IN TIS WORLD then u will be the happiest gurl in the world....fine if tis is the way u wan our FRIENDSHIP to be go ahead...fine if u think i leave u n i go wth ming yuan will be happiest u r WRONG.....Im happy when im with the BOTH OF U but nt one only yupp.......... now u wan me to go to ming yuan there i really gt no choice le....anyway it was my STUPID THINKING yupp then im SORRY...if u really dun forgive me im really gt nothing to say le...yupp i oso have loads of problems...u think i so free think of tis..ok fine i admit it my faults...IM SORRY ......since primary six i be ur fren u keep suffering bcos of me i really dun noe wat to say...anyway u think leaving tis friendship problems we both will be happier then i really gt nothing to add le............. if u oso always think im the LOUSY one n u r the GOOD one i really have to say ya u r RIGHT.....im always the LOUSY one..everyone hate me even my best dearest closest fren oso dislike me now then i think i will rather die then carry on living in tis world n create more problems.......i noe it my faults ok im SORRY....im so HURT n SAD too is there anyone for me....atleast there more better frens out there for u....ya u always share ur probelsm with a STUPID fren like me tat who cant help u solve it but create the probelms BIG right...i gt to tell u tis i really have no one to share my problems with even yesterday my family members tok to me i jus ignored them....anyway i have 1 request i jus hope tis friendship with u will be better but u always think i suffer more with u i have to say tis U R THE BEST N PRECIOUS fren i ever be with...im nvr regretted being with u but u always think i leave u n go with other ppl then i really have to say tis "if u really wanna me to leave u i will but if u dun wan me to leave i will stay n if both u oso dun wan i will die forever"...........i really hope tis probelms will be super fine soon...anyway i gt to tell u tis ya ITS MY FAULTS TIS TIME IM REALLY SORRY I HOPE WE COULD MEET N SETTLE IT CLEARLY............ALL I WANNA SAY I ALREADY SAY HERE IF U WANNA BLAME ME THEN GO AHEAD...i jus hope our friendship will be better but nt like tis ....ok i admitted it MY FAULTS tis time.......IM SORRY...i jus hope we can meet out n explain to each other clearly.....i jus hope we both will be happier....all i can say now is I DUN WANNA LEAVE OR BREAK TIS FRIENDSHIP WITH U N I SORRY TOOO....................Thks frens for being there for me..thks sooo much!!!
IM SORRY....PLS FORGIVE ME I DUN WISH TIS FRIENDSHIP WILL BE SPOIL BUT THIS KIND OF SMALL MATTER
AFTER
hehe back to posting jus now when to eat at white sands then shop shop lo at popular then head to the supermarket lo then now at home so posting lo yupp..jus now msg her no reply i think she gt no money le lo all i can say is that im really sorry pls forgive me.....i hope u wil think abt it i will give u sometime see whether u wanna forgive me pls give me a call i will be waiting for ur call but if u dun then i dun noe wat can i do le.....pls dun leave or break tis friendship....pls i beg u....pls understand me too...pls im really aorry tat i have misunderstand u so sorry will u give me another chance pls lets start anew???can we...pls im really hurt n sad i really dun noe wat shld i do so tat u will forgive me????pls..is nt tat i wanna blame u is jus tat the friendship we have in primary 6-sec 3 is nt there anymore le is jus tat i feel or friendship is so drifted apart...i jus wanna tell u tis problems so see how can we be better only nt the other meaning.....i really sorry...i hope u will understand me sometime im really very sad n hurt there is no noe tat why i tell u tat....hope u will understand my ATTITUDE........i noe im WRONG pls FORGIVE ME i PROMISE tis wont happen again....pls...i beg u.....ya its my faults tis time SORRY.....i really dun noe wat shld i do now ao tat u can FORGIVE ME???wat can i do so tat u will FORGIVE ME???pls tell me im suffering right now??????PLS I BEG U.....pls i really very SAD n HURT NOW.....even my stomach hurt terrible...........im really DYING SOON!!!!IM DEAD!!!=(
DEEP DOWN INSIDE MY HEART IM REALLY SORRY=)
DINNER
Back to post i jus ate my dinner yupp guess wat i have for dinner?actually is steamboat at home with my family but sad darling mei mei nt here bcos she go gb camp haiish...anyway it was great but some ingredients forget to buy lo haha....yupp..im still so sad i msg her she nvr reply nor even give me a call wat shld i do???shld i give her a call??wat shld i do now??i really very sad now do she noe...im even waiting for her to online i gt so many things to tell her but she nvr online....i noe my words r abit hurting but y cant u jus forgive n forget.....im hurt do anyone noe????cant we jus patch back as DARLING or SWEETIE??can we????im really SAD i think i shld be dying le.....gt to tell ur im really SORRY i really gt no choice le im really DYING...goodbye all my frens....i have done sooo many things to proof to u tat its my FAULTS but u dun seen to respond to it....im jus really tired of living in tis world i gt no choice but to say i think the only way is to die then i carry on creating more troubles for ur....i dun wish tis matters to happen anyway jus push all the blames to me i can take it anyway i really gt nthing to say le....i have already done all my best to apologise to u but it seen u dun respond i really nthing to say anyway lastly before im DEAD i gt 2 apologise to u IM FOREVER SORRY.....=(goodbye...lastly i gt 2 say tis i noe tis is the worst nightmare to have a STUPID FREN like me.....anyway wat shld i do so tat u will forgive me?die?leave u?patch with u?or wat?can u jus pls tell me?i gt to say tis clearly i nvr ever regretted having u as my PRECIOUS or DARLING i nvr ever thought of leaving U........but.............n who ever understand me????who noe how m i feeling now???i waiten for u 2 online for almost the whole day but...........i really gt nothing to say le..if u think im a BAD or LOUSY fren let it be...to many ppls, im always the BAD n LOUSY ONE no one ever like me or care for me before.....i dun noe wat is CARE or LOVE??i jus gt tis feeling tat i so lack of LOVE n CARE............i dun really understand how do u mean a person who care or love u???im so confused.....???i jus noe dying 2 me will make everyone one happier even u...u will have lesser burden.....n u wont feel stress anymore.....if i really nt there anymore dun ever cry for me but feel happy for me ok......dun ever drop a tear for me im nt worst crying for.......wat i have done i have done.....i really gt no choice le????im DEAD from today on.....goodbye take care all my precious frens even u darling........pls dun cry for me ok?gt to say wat i have say le now i shld be going ok bye take care........anyway i will be glad when ur all dun cry for me when im nt in tis world anymore le n i wont be angry with u.....i might be the HAPPIER GURL on earth.....take care all my frens...really gtg le...GOODBYE...will miss ur all de......IM DEAD LE!!!!if all tat u wanna say abt me in ur blog i really think i gt nothing to say le...ok fine i really very hurt n sad dun u really understand me???fine maybe tat the facts tat i shld nt be exist in tis world......atleast when u r sad there r alwys frens there for u.....fine if tats wat u wanna describle me in ur blig i really got nothing to say le.......anyway i was really glad to have u as my frens...ur the BEST n PRECIOUS in my eyes.............fine i really have to go IM DEAD NOW......goodbye...
