back,today woke up at 12pm sorry everyone make ur wait for me bcos yesterday rush daddy present lo sleep at 2am sad haha so tired but nt choice haha.yupp.today when to tanglin mall to celebrating daddy birthday we have steamboat quite expensive but really have great fun n the foods was extremely wonderful n really tasty hope to go there again yupp then the boss so funny he keep coming to our table to tell us story n sing birthday song to my daddy.loads of langagues he sing gt hokkien,catonese,malay,english n more then he oso tell us story very funny n oso dance malay dance so funny but was really nice n cute of him haha.but he come fr hongkong n noe alots of langagues haha suprised...haha lols=) good boss haha entertainment from him haha.then we head to forum then later head to takashimaya then daddy head to dialysia centre alone sad for him but we shop at takashimaya then head to accompany him haha im happy tat i bought a disney polo tee today great right haha then we bought donut,foods n more really was a wonderful day yupp haha now everywhere gt sale wanna bought alot of things haha.then dinner we eat kopitiam so late bcos all restuartant closed le so sad but we have great fun.haha bought daddy a shirt haha hope he like it haha=) is was a wonderful time for all of us even daddy,wanna to buy a cake but scared melt so nvr buy but nvm will surely buy for him soon haha.lovess daddy so much=) haha will nvr ever miss tis happiest moments tat we as a whole family have.haha lovess it.btw mummy gt bad cough hope she will get well soon yupp take care mummy lovess ya too=) lovess=)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAREST N LOVING DADDY!
MAY ALL UR DREAMS COME TRUE!!
MAY U FOREVER STAY IN GOOD HEALTH!
MAY GOD PROTECT N WATCH OVER U ALWAYS N BLESS U TOO!!
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EVERYTHING IS FINE LE!!!!
EVERYTHING IS SOLVE LE!!!
EVERYTHING IS NORMAL AGAIN!!!
AND WE R BOTH HAPPY AGAIN!!!
TAT'S GREAT!!!
LOVESS HER=)
dear guys sorry 4 the past few days entries tat was super long sorry hope ur understand thks.hehe 2day nthing much happen is jus tat 2day wake up quite early abt 10-10.30am yepp finally early le haha lols.but i think later going to help mummy do hsewk so tat she come back can rest.haha good gurl right haha im so bhb haha.lols.sweetie is sick le so i hope she is doing fine n feeling better le.even jie n i oso sick hope all of us will get well soon.2day maybe going 2 b a busy day for me haha.later after hsewk have to continue with the present tat i have prepare for daddy.yupp tmr is daddy birthday le hope he will be happy tmr.later oso have to buy breakfast n lunch for di di n me bcos nvr go grandma hse,jus now grandma call like very upset n miss u haiish.now i dun noe how? nothing much to post le ok shall post again later after all my tasks tat im suppose to do for today.everything is back to normal yupp that great im so in love with sweetie now i cant wait to meet her n go out with her again.lovess you forever..!=)thks everyone everything is fine le.thks for all of ur concern.=) im so grateful=)thanks=)
to a fren(nuratika): cheer up things will be fine soon like wat have happen to me yupp=) smile more=)
back fr lunch me n di di went to white sands n eat ous lunch at 2pm so late arh.haha but was quite full le then walk walk with di di to buy his things n went to walk walk to help di di choose his present for daddy but did nt manage to get a present bcos dun noe wat to get for him so now reach home le so post lo.everyone take care now alots of ppl fall sick easily yupp drink more water everyone=)health more important then anything.yupp=)haha saw church fren on the way to white sands n even back saw her haha=)ok shall stop here gt loads of things to do,but do finish le then will try to come to post more yupp=)
haha jus now i was so busy washing clothes,mopping the floor,sweeping the floor,cleaning the cooking area,clearing rubbish n clearing all the dirty things yupp im back fr cleaning n doing hsewk yupp haha i did the hsewk last minute but in the end i have finally finish it see i so gd haha=)haha im so bhb haha.it was tiring but it was great tat the hse is clean now.im so smelly n my back aching now haha atleast i have done the hsewk so tat when my parents come back they can rest instead of nagging n cleaning haha joking.yupp now waiting for my dinner to be back.haha grandma cooking=)haha i so miss grandma bcos did not go her hse for very long le.yupp tat all i wanna post ok shall end will post my new entries tmr.take care everyone.tata for now lovess u all=)
1day to dearest daddy birthday!!!
ello back to post yupp...tis few days i keeping waking up at like abt 12pm haha so late right...lols..haiish actually suppose to go out eat sakue sushi with my cousin n jie de but for the past few days im really hurt n upset no mood to do anything....anyway im really sorry to my cousin n jie i really sorry make ur cancel tis outing today jus bcos of me...really sorry i really gt no mood n now im jus like so sick gt sore throat gt flu n headache...im really sorry....thks karen cousin for the sms encouragment lovess u...thks i will try n tell u the reply soon...sorry guys really i lian lei ur together with me..really sorry really sorry i now feel more gulity bcos of me ur plan hao hao le then now ruined by me really sorry but i promise when im fine n have the mood to go out i will tell ur asap...sorry mummy,papa,jie jie,mei mei n di di really sorry i really hardly smile i really dun noe wat really happen to amanda le....sorry all my lovess ones im really sorry...im really sick too anyway ok gtg im really sick le throat very dry keep going to get water n drink water...im so pek chek now..ok gtg..maybe will post again soon...haha nthing to post le..but be back later....sorry everyone....thanks mummy for the loving n caring letter i really appreciate it....yupp is my faults i really gt nothing to say all i can say now is sorry mummy n sorry sweetie..........thanks mum lovess u.....hope u will understand how m i feeling now....thks mummy....lovess u forever.....ur the best....i noe i keep crying n keep making u worry im sorry mummy....i will listen to wat u have say to me...thks=)
to sweetie~im really sorry=( can i give u a call now i wanna explain everythings clearly too u...i noe is my faults but can u give me a chance to explain to u....anyway no matters how long i will still be waiting for u n ur call....n i nvr blame u at all....i noe is my faults i apologise to u....SORRY=(
2 more days to my dearest daddy birthday hope everything will be fine by thursday bcos i dun wanna spoil the happy moments for my daddy bcos of me....i hope u will understand....pls.....haiish it have be 3 days since we quarrel when will it be fine....?nvm i will be waiting no matter how long is it or how tough it is or how sad it is i will continue to wait for u n ur precious call........im really sorry...=( im really sorry for hurting u so deeply...now i understand why r u so hurt le...yupp im really sorry..i noe ur problems r more serious tat me but how can i help u? n i really gt loads of things to tell u now can u be a listening ear to me now? i really gt no one to share my problems le only u....im really sorry...i noe u r sad n hurt now.....im really sorry n i noe it really hurt u deeply btw i will be waiting for ur precious call soon......i dun wanna u to spoil ur mood bcos of me..pls stay happy n smile more....n be more hyper ok....promise?? im really sorry for all the wrong deads i have done...sorry sweetie can we patch up soon???really miss talking to u.....SORRY....=( anyway i will continue to pray to god for u n ur family....n even us...cheer up=) lastly forgetten to wish u all the best for ur first day of work n "JIA YO SWEETIE" n all the best for u for the rest of the working day u r going through too...may god watch over u....n protect u always....always pray to god when u have problems tat u r going through..i will pray for u too......i noe u r very stress now i understand u r stress now but how can i help u?? im sorry tat i think negative of u im really sorry i shld have think positive of u.....im really sorry i understand tat u have many problems now but can i help u??? how can i help u??? i really sincerly wanna help u can i?? im really sorry.....no matter how angry u r with me i still sincerly wanna help u pls can i help u??......pls i did nt purposely wanna blame u de is a misunderstanding tat i have done by taking the wrong step n hurt u im really sorry...pls understand me....SORRY...=(
back fr dinner haha today dinner was so late la abt 7 going to 8 plus then eat i so hungry la....anyway i hope sweetie will get well soon..take care sweetie so miss the precious friendship we have together....jus now tok to her..im feeling much better le..dun worry i will give u time to calm down first....sorry anyway im at faults first hope our friendship will be fine soon n we can patch up soon...pls sorry sweetie miss toking to u n going out with u....when will be our next outing together n when will be meeting each other again?? i sooooo miss u n miss everything with u......sorry sweetie hope u r feeling much better now...hope u r doing fine now too.......get well soon...=) will be waiting for ur call n reply...ok shall stop gtg....take care sweetie drink more water whether very hot......yupp=)smile more cheer up more n lastly hyper more pls.....
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IM DEAD FOREVER!!!=( *CRY=(
to darling:
yupp im really SORRY=( pls FORGIVE me... i noe its my FAULTS on saturday for misunderstanding u n i noe im am abit to rash tat time but i really sorry.. i really dun noe wat can i do then will u forgive me completely? i noe how u feel ya, if i were u i will feel sad too....=( im really SORRY for misunderstanding u...if i were really u im oso sad n hurt now...yupp is my FAULTS... i admitted but can we settle tis problem? i dun wish bcos of me tis friendship with each other will be separated... pls i realised me mistakes le...i noe im really at FAULTS now...but im really hurt too ur words really hurt me alot and even i ignored my family members....wat shld i do now..? i jus hope u will forgive me n dun bcos of me nt hyper anymore...pls..is u who told me to be more hyperactive so tat our friendship will be better n i can make more friends but bcos of tis small matter i create u dun wanna be hyperactive anymore i dun think is worth it...pls i kneel down n apologise to u ok? ok im really sorry i jus wanna our friendship to be better only yupp is my faults for blaming u but last time we wrote letter we say we are best frens for life but so fast we gave up each other le...i really sorry pls, u dun leave or break tis friendship i jus wanna say among all the years i have make a correct decsison to choose u to be my best fren i nvr regretted tat i have u as my fren=) i nvr ever regretted im stating to u the facts ...really i nvr bluff u.... i oso dun wish u to be sad bos of my stupid or wild thinking pls cheer up n smile more darling....=) im nt worth crying for or im nt worth to be sad.....yupp i noe how it feel by my hurting words actually im nt worth forgiving too bcos i nvr ever treat u gd before im jus so bad keep on misunderstanding u.... yupp i really sorry for the hurting words pls forgive me.....can we become best n closest frens again? is tat possible? pls let jus start anew? i promise tis wont happen again..pls..yupp i really sorry i shld nt blame u bcos im sure u wont do tat de i oso trust u r nt tat kind of fren but indeed a wonderful n great fren...yupp i shld learn to forgive n forget more..=) yupp im the one who shld nt be thinking too much n anyhow imagine..sorry i understand n get wat u mean le yupp i shld nt be thinking abt the things tat r nt true n hurt myself n ever hurt u n even blame u n add troubles to u when i dun noe whether its true or nt yupp i really sorry i realised my mistakes le will u ever give me a chance to explain wat really happen n give me a chance to treat u better n be a good fren to u n stop blaming u....pls...im really wrong of u....sorry=) if u forgive me i have a request can u be hyper like before n happy like before pls......dun bcos of me u nt hyper n happy anymore....pls shld be me nt hyper n happy anymore nt u...pls stopping hurting urself bcos of me..pls..... yupp is i started it so its my faults n so i shld end tis problems by apologising to u..SORRY=)pls... as wat they say bitter to sweet tat mean it take times to get our friendship sweet but i wont blame u i understand u have many problems now but i will be always waiting for our friendship to be the sweetest even its very long or tough or forever i will nvr ever give up nor leave tis friendship.....as they oso say ppls in life are full of up n down so i hope we shld oso learn to forgive n forget.....yupp i really admitted now is all my wild thinking tat hurt u im really sorry.=) pls smile more.... n i will nvr ever foget the happiest moments we spent together ya btw all the times i spent with u r always the happiest n the most wonderful in the world for me...yupp tat all i have to say but before i sign out tis is for u IM REALLY SORRY WILL U GIVE ME CHANCE TO EXPLAIN TO U?? SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY=( im really very sorry tat i blame u i now noe le i have taken the wrong step by pushing all the blame on u im really sorry i shld think before i blame or say u im really sorry......can u pls forgive me im really sorry....im really very sad n hurt but its nt ur faults is mine sorry....sory sorry.....im really very sorry.......sorry precious darling......miss all the happiest moments=( can we jus start anew??? is tat possible???
lovess
amanda=(
BEFORE
back to post ya fine if u think im tat kind of fren then i oso dun noe wat to do??fine if u wan me to leave tis friendship with u then u will be the world happiest gurl i will do it.fine if u always think im the BAD GURL i really gt nothing to say....jus treat it as AMANDA is already DEAD N BURY in the GRAVEYARD le.....fine if u always think im blaming u i really think i rather die then be with anyone n add BURDEN TO THEM...yupp GOD make the WRONG decision for creating a BAD gurl like me into tis world..yupp how i wish i was nt EXIST IN TIS WORLD then u will be the happiest gurl in the world....fine if tis is the way u wan our FRIENDSHIP to be go ahead...fine if u think i leave u n i go wth ming yuan will be happiest u r WRONG.....Im happy when im with the BOTH OF U but nt one only yupp.......... now u wan me to go to ming yuan there i really gt no choice le....anyway it was my STUPID THINKING yupp then im SORRY...if u really dun forgive me im really gt nothing to say le...yupp i oso have loads of problems...u think i so free think of tis..ok fine i admit it my faults...IM SORRY ......since primary six i be ur fren u keep suffering bcos of me i really dun noe wat to say...anyway u think leaving tis friendship problems we both will be happier then i really gt nothing to add le............. if u oso always think im the LOUSY one n u r the GOOD one i really have to say ya u r RIGHT.....im always the LOUSY one..everyone hate me even my best dearest closest fren oso dislike me now then i think i will rather die then carry on living in tis world n create more problems.......i noe it my faults ok im SORRY....im so HURT n SAD too is there anyone for me....atleast there more better frens out there for u....ya u always share ur probelsm with a STUPID fren like me tat who cant help u solve it but create the probelms BIG right...i gt to tell u tis i really have no one to share my problems with even yesterday my family members tok to me i jus ignored them....anyway i have 1 request i jus hope tis friendship with u will be better but u always think i suffer more with u i have to say tis U R THE BEST N PRECIOUS fren i ever be with...im nvr regretted being with u but u always think i leave u n go with other ppl then i really have to say tis "if u really wanna me to leave u i will but if u dun wan me to leave i will stay n if both u oso dun wan i will die forever"...........i really hope tis probelms will be super fine soon...anyway i gt to tell u tis ya ITS MY FAULTS TIS TIME IM REALLY SORRY I HOPE WE COULD MEET N SETTLE IT CLEARLY............ALL I WANNA SAY I ALREADY SAY HERE IF U WANNA BLAME ME THEN GO AHEAD...i jus hope our friendship will be better but nt like tis ....ok i admitted it MY FAULTS tis time.......IM SORRY...i jus hope we can meet out n explain to each other clearly.....i jus hope we both will be happier....all i can say now is I DUN WANNA LEAVE OR BREAK TIS FRIENDSHIP WITH U N I SORRY TOOO....................Thks frens for being there for me..thks sooo much!!!
IM SORRY....PLS FORGIVE ME I DUN WISH TIS FRIENDSHIP WILL BE SPOIL BUT THIS KIND OF SMALL MATTER
AFTER
hehe back to posting jus now when to eat at white sands then shop shop lo at popular then head to the supermarket lo then now at home so posting lo yupp..jus now msg her no reply i think she gt no money le lo all i can say is that im really sorry pls forgive me.....i hope u wil think abt it i will give u sometime see whether u wanna forgive me pls give me a call i will be waiting for ur call but if u dun then i dun noe wat can i do le.....pls dun leave or break tis friendship....pls i beg u....pls understand me too...pls im really aorry tat i have misunderstand u so sorry will u give me another chance pls lets start anew???can we...pls im really hurt n sad i really dun noe wat shld i do so tat u will forgive me????pls..is nt tat i wanna blame u is jus tat the friendship we have in primary 6-sec 3 is nt there anymore le is jus tat i feel or friendship is so drifted apart...i jus wanna tell u tis problems so see how can we be better only nt the other meaning.....i really sorry...i hope u will understand me sometime im really very sad n hurt there is no noe tat why i tell u tat....hope u will understand my ATTITUDE........i noe im WRONG pls FORGIVE ME i PROMISE tis wont happen again....pls...i beg u.....ya its my faults tis time SORRY.....i really dun noe wat shld i do now ao tat u can FORGIVE ME???wat can i do so tat u will FORGIVE ME???pls tell me im suffering right now??????PLS I BEG U.....pls i really very SAD n HURT NOW.....even my stomach hurt terrible...........im really DYING SOON!!!!IM DEAD!!!=(
DEEP DOWN INSIDE MY HEART IM REALLY SORRY=)
DINNER
Back to post i jus ate my dinner yupp guess wat i have for dinner?actually is steamboat at home with my family but sad darling mei mei nt here bcos she go gb camp haiish...anyway it was great but some ingredients forget to buy lo haha....yupp..im still so sad i msg her she nvr reply nor even give me a call wat shld i do???shld i give her a call??wat shld i do now??i really very sad now do she noe...im even waiting for her to online i gt so many things to tell her but she nvr online....i noe my words r abit hurting but y cant u jus forgive n forget.....im hurt do anyone noe????cant we jus patch back as DARLING or SWEETIE??can we????im really SAD i think i shld be dying le.....gt to tell ur im really SORRY i really gt no choice le im really DYING...goodbye all my frens....i have done sooo many things to proof to u tat its my FAULTS but u dun seen to respond to it....im jus really tired of living in tis world i gt no choice but to say i think the only way is to die then i carry on creating more troubles for ur....i dun wish tis matters to happen anyway jus push all the blames to me i can take it anyway i really gt nthing to say le....i have already done all my best to apologise to u but it seen u dun respond i really nthing to say anyway lastly before im DEAD i gt 2 apologise to u IM FOREVER SORRY.....=(goodbye...lastly i gt 2 say tis i noe tis is the worst nightmare to have a STUPID FREN like me.....anyway wat shld i do so tat u will forgive me?die?leave u?patch with u?or wat?can u jus pls tell me?i gt to say tis clearly i nvr ever regretted having u as my PRECIOUS or DARLING i nvr ever thought of leaving U........but.............n who ever understand me????who noe how m i feeling now???i waiten for u 2 online for almost the whole day but...........i really gt nothing to say le..if u think im a BAD or LOUSY fren let it be...to many ppls, im always the BAD n LOUSY ONE no one ever like me or care for me before.....i dun noe wat is CARE or LOVE??i jus gt tis feeling tat i so lack of LOVE n CARE............i dun really understand how do u mean a person who care or love u???im so confused.....???i jus noe dying 2 me will make everyone one happier even u...u will have lesser burden.....n u wont feel stress anymore.....if i really nt there anymore dun ever cry for me but feel happy for me ok......dun ever drop a tear for me im nt worst crying for.......wat i have done i have done.....i really gt no choice le????im DEAD from today on.....goodbye take care all my precious frens even u darling........pls dun cry for me ok?gt to say wat i have say le now i shld be going ok bye take care........anyway i will be glad when ur all dun cry for me when im nt in tis world anymore le n i wont be angry with u.....i might be the HAPPIER GURL on earth.....take care all my frens...really gtg le...GOODBYE...will miss ur all de......IM DEAD LE!!!!if all tat u wanna say abt me in ur blog i really think i gt nothing to say le...ok fine i really very hurt n sad dun u really understand me???fine maybe tat the facts tat i shld nt be exist in tis world......atleast when u r sad there r alwys frens there for u.....fine if tats wat u wanna describle me in ur blig i really got nothing to say le.......anyway i was really glad to have u as my frens...ur the BEST n PRECIOUS in my eyes.............fine i really have to go IM DEAD NOW......goodbye...
BEFORE
today when to take results lo haha yupp quite gd but eng n chinese oso lousy..took my results at abt 8.30am.haha sian so came to post now,later gt flag day so sian n so hot have to wear gb full uniforms lo sad haha then do until 4-5pm yupp.saw many ppl came out fr sch hall but nvr saw HIM sad for me....now im really sad i really need U where r u???can u stay by my side forever yupp im hurt....ok gtg maybe back le then post lo.....im so SAD n HURT....when i tok to u,u like nt interested why?why mus u treat me like tis wat did i did WRONG?wat can i do to be with U?wat shld i do now im so sad...who will understand me?
AFTER
haha back fr flag day.we were allow 2 go fr kovan 2 sengkang so we went 2 lavender mrt then we went to bugis then after tat went to chinatown then back to gb centre.today flag day was like the more lousy among all the flag day i have taken part.sad for me n others.haha went home so came com can access to internet.yupp went downtown east 2 eat our dinner yupp then now back so posting...sorry so late post bcos com siao 1 internet sometime can use but sometime cant so irrtating..yupp sad so i will tell ur wat really happen to me..hope com will be fine soon....
SAD MOMENTS:
im jus so sad i msg darling she nvr reply so sad so later i msg her again then she say no money le i understand but i ask her before hand whether she wanna go out with me but she reply i cant go gt job training is like i wanna ask her out oso so difficult n today she go out n i dun noe anything..sad am i her really really BEST n TRUE fren?i feel like a SILLY fool is like im jus like a BALL kick here n there lo when they need me they jus come to me now dun need me kick me aside...am i a HUMAN or a BALL?n i oso dun really noe darling's probelms im jus a fool like me, keep me dun like me kick me aside why?did i did wrong?im jus so SAD r u there 4 me....atleast u SAD still gt so many ppls there for u when im SAD r u really there for me n do u understand the feeling i have RIGHT NOW?...i noe u dun....i dun noe whether shld i jus be ur normal fren or shld i be ur sweetie fren..?i jus feel tat so many ppls HATE ME!!!n even HE is nt there for me..n even when i wanna tell him my problems he is always offline..?why r u avoiding me?can i speak to u alone personailty?can i?i wanna be with U!!im so SAD n i even think of dying....why? now i so miss dearest darling mei mei...sad she go camp left me face my problems alone...frens i wanna tell ur all my probelms but is jus tat ur mostly r nt interested.....i really hope i can share all my probelms with ur...really hope there will be a TRUSTABLE fren there for me....sad i nvr tok to my family then my mummy ask i jus dun noe how to tell them or explain to them n now like so many problem: gt friendship probelms,family probelms n even money probelms....why how can i help?im jus so tired of tis n even tired of living on.... A question WAT IS A TRUE FREN LIKE????maybe im nt suitable to be ur fren n i rather die then i create more troubles....i jus wanna ask u tis question "did u even treat me like a TRUE n BEST fren or did u jus treat me like a BALL?I jus wanna noe the answer...im jus so extra in everytihing....everytime im there u r always so upset n moody so wat for shld i be in tis world?im so DEAD now do u understand how i feel jus now??u dun right....who even understand me?how can i trust u?are u always interested in all the things i say?all i can say now is i really dun noe wat shld i do?shld i continue to be ur fren or shld i leave u...?wat shld i do???I REALLY HAVE ENOUGH OF IT!!ONE PROBLEMS AFTER THE OTHER..!!!but i dun really wanna lost tis friendship....SAD!!=(
JUST.....
today nthing much happen but i jus wan 2 say tat today programs was mostly quite fun.at first it was pe.pe was 2 play captain ball with our class guys.at first no fun bcos they say boys n gurls see who win but in e end e game nt fun de,they anyhow play de n they nvr pass to those quiet 1 but only pass 2 among themselves..im jus feel so left out n im so sad..then i jus seat aside then mr koh like so angry with me..im sorry classmates if i av add more burden 4 u n make ur cant work together so sorry!!then i feel like mr koh dislike me now...?haiish why everyday surely either 1 or more ppl dislike me de??then after pe gt temeask poly talk like yesterday so sian then after tat gt recess then latin music.latin music rock n its sooo cool...!i so love latin music now yupp i fall in love with it le then they oso sing the song perhaps in spain very nice la love it...so super love it.then oso gt lots of song tat i noe but in another version yupp but still love it....but too bad we r the only sec 4 class, why his class nvr come sad=( then later go back classroom to clean up then later at 1pm gt wrap up quite fun la...then now back home to post lo...took bus 13 bcos many ppl take bus 26 lols.then on the way 2 take mrt saw hz n frens la then his fren like keep saying oooooooooo la then i quickly walk then when they came up took the same line n even stand beside me then i move abit then later i move more to the front...yupp i think HE go tampines mall n study so gd arh muz be act wan...haha lols=)maybe after church will updated more if i gt time to online....lols=)
IS IT BCOS OF U....SAD=(
i dun noe why everytime i wan to c u, u nt there n when everytime i dun want to see u, u appear in front of me..i really wanna see you urgently alone only.....jus now saw u wanna tok to u but ur frens there i dun dare to tok to u...i jus wanna tok to u alone... i nt wanna avoid u jus now is bcos i feel tat im happy n sad im so confused???i jus hope we could be like those happy couples.....why cant tis happen on me?i dun noe why jus now saw u like sad n on the other hand happy i dun understand....?something how i could wish i could pretty until a relationship with me will sucess..why like tis i jus wanna be with u oso gt wrong...i wanna u 2 be by my side forever can u???y mus u treat me so bad everytime?i wanna face u but is tat im nt tat pretty so i dun av the confidence to tok to u.....i arelly wanna tok to u now at tis moments can u come n accompany me forever....?can u?why cant u jus give me a chance to tell u tat i sooo love u why?why cant i have a chance to be with u too?i so miss u....
JUST NOWhaha now at temasek poly so came 2 post lo...today e course very fun mayb will be interested in tis course lo..haha i dun noe y today so sad but i will updated when i get home ok...gtg
RIGHT NOWhaha back fr temasek poly haha e activities we av there was quite fun n interesting lovess it....mayb after ITE i wanna learn tis course...haha very interesting we learn abt how 2 make a story by using video...yupp..whole day was at TP yupp we was dismiss at 12.30pm soooo early right...then after e course go find jie yupp.she n her fren eating lunch i nvr eat bcos quene was quite long lo...then take bus 15 2 white sands then wait 4 mei mei n di di yupp then bought lunch back home n eat bcos no place 2 seat then went 2 supermarket 2 buy ingredients 4 our dinner....yupp bcos no1 go grandma hse 2 take dinner tat y we av 2 cook dinner ourselves lo haha...then now posting lo...haha now let me tok abt some unhappy things tat happen ard me tis few days....UNHAPPY THINGS TAT HAPPEN TODAY.......haiish darling feel very sad today av a quarrel with HIM i dun noe how 2 help them.....but anyway cheer up..dun sad still gt amanda here darling.then i oso miss HIM badly i really hope he will give me a chance 2 be with HIM i jus hope so... i jus cant forget HIM.why??when can i be with YOU???miss YOU deeply.....lovess YOU too!!!then ya lan n margaret they 2 quarrel yesterday i really dun noe how 2 help them i really dun noe which side shld i be in...haiish so confused??anyway both of ur pls dun quarrel le we shld give way 2 1 another yupp then our frenship will be better then before..cheer up both of ur..ur both will always be my PRECIOUS n my BEST frens...we shld oso treasure our frenship n cherish them well before we will regret it...yupp then today really feel very left out...i feel tat every1 is lyk so dislike me n avoiding me always...i feel lyk a FOOL in every1 eyes why??am i a FOOL 2 ur???am i such a lousy fren 2 all of ur tat ur av 2 treat me like tis..all my dear fren i have 1 thing 2 tell ur i really SORRY if i av been a LOUSY fren 2 ur im really SORRY....=(wat shld i do even HE is nt there 4 me when i really need his help very urgently n need HIS company urgently too....i need YOU badly....=( SAD...HAIISH...where r YOU y dun u let me suffer tis by myself why??all i can describe myself is tat im so USELESS n im a FAILURE...im jus so SAD every single day...why??where is my really TRUE fren?who shld i TRUST?im nt blaming any1 of ur but sometime tis problems really hurt me deeply n bitterly i dun noe wat shld i do now?i noe i sometime too much but i really SORRY all my dearest frens...SORRY....i really dun noe wat to do???wat shld i really do???feel tat all my frenship with my very BEST buddy r all sooo drifted apart ...really very SAD....dun noe wat to do??CONFUSING???SAD 4 me to say im sure a FAILURE!!!i jus feel tat im nt FIT 2 be any of ur fren or buddy???IM JUS NT FIT....im SORRY if i keep giving ur a black face is bcos i dun wish to make ur upset bcos of me i really SORRY if i make ur SUFFER im really really SORRY....=( IM DYING NOW......
IM REALLY SORRY...all my dearest frens...
haha hey posting again haha today post activites is firstly aITE talk then follow but the a IT enrichment then follow but a shatec talk haha tat wat we have for today hehe.....the ITE talk was quite boring bcos i nt interested in tis course but it really help us to get to noe better in tat course yupp then after the ITE talk we have IT enrichment, we learn to make movie haha. but the com in sch was very lag n always hang de but was really interesting n a new experience to me...our recess is at 10.55am so late.we gt height n weight taking luckily lost 2kg haha.that after recess we gt shatec talk, they were late bcos they went to the gelyang tat site haha then while waiting talk to kimberly n ming yuan....i told kimberly abt HIM then she told me more abt HIM......haha im so happy but it's surely impossible for me too be with HIM..how i wish i could be with HIM, i jus cant forget him whole heartly..wat shld i do??....haiish....then the shactec talk was interesting but the course fee was very ex..haha....then after the talk went to far east to walk walk but nvr buy anything...haiish i sorry if i have ruined the fun bcos i have a terrible headache n a terrible stomach ache....sian...went home at abt 4+pm then went to take a nap so tat will feel better haha....but now still gt abit of headache....haiish sian....so now came to post....haiish i gt a problems im so sad tat y so much ppl hate me or dislike me why n why everyone like keep blaming me when i quarrel with them im so useless why wat shld i do??im so confused????why did i did anything wrong tat ur all so hate me so bitterly??it really hurt me deeply.......sad.....wat shld i do???confused???today gt so many probelms ard me happen i really dun noe how to help all of them.....i did nt mean to say tat but it really hurt me deeply.....haiish...=(haiish kimberly told me tat u ssy i c u like dun noe u is bcos like u oso c me give me tat look os i dun darn to say hi to u.....haiish so confused....??=(why???
darling~cheer up...dun always quarrel with him ur shld treasure each other well but nt misunderstand each other.....=)
ya lan n margaret~cheer up to dun quarrel le we r still frens right dun jus bcos of small matter quarrel since it our last year lets treat each other better..ok.....=)
haha posting time hehe finally today get back our exam results le, almost all my results very gd pray the lord thks god too for all his help through tis exam period tat i have struggled yupp. but my chinese paper 1 faill very badly i so disappointed haiish all i can do is to strive even harder for n level yupp.thks after checking exam results gt recess then chapel.chapel was quite fun haha all along singing haha.haha more of the song we sang r mostly i noe de.haha then after chapel we have cooking tat was great too we were separated into 2 grp our grp cook sheperd pie the our grp cook cake with pineapple n cherry on it yummy all the food we cook taste so wonderful n great haha hope there will be more cooking lesson for us haha.yupp.ok nthing to post le....gtg
darling~dun so sad over ur exam atleast u pass le.i can see tat u have did ur best le.cheer up=)
haha here to post again since nthing to do so here to post yupp.today actually thought take results in the end is exam feedback so sad hope to noe my results soon so i will nt b so worrying n stress.haha but tmr taking le so have to see how have i done 4 all my exam papers yupp hope it will be fine.yupp.stress n pek chek haha.today after exam programs was maths feeback n english feedback yupp today recess was super early la was 9.10am - 9.45am then abt 10am went to hall to have a reflection program at first dun noe wat was it but first it was singing then guess the correct places tat the teacher have taken yupp was quite fun then gt a water safety talk from a teacher yupp then our class have to rush back to our classroom for a prinpical talk it was interesting then later was the english exam feedback then after tat was class contact time lo then came home so now posting lo.haha i noe my english marks it was quite low but i did pass but still very sad haiish so jus have to wait for the other subjects results lo haha so scare.haha today i so sad actually is nt only bcos of my english marks very lousy but i feel sad was tat my friendship with darling is like drifted apart le nvr be the same like before so sad.i think it my faults haiish wat shld i do 2 improve tis friendship into a better better one....feel tat im so useless haiish.today actually suppose to go out de but mum dun allow me so here to play com n online lo so sad.everytime i wan to go out i jus feel tat when im there the fun will be spoil so i dun darn to go out bcos i dun wan to spoil the fun and dun wan 2 make every1 so unhappy bcos me haiish sad.why?confused????wat shld i do to make all the things ard me jus go smoothly as it is?why always like tis?
~thks everyone for the concern today but im still very sad abt my english marks haiish anyway really thks all of ur 4 always being there 4 me.really appreciate all of ur help.thanks so much....
hehe hey to post today when out with darling,edmund,ya lan and vincent to orchand yupp went to takashimaya first then shaw hse then far east to buy things bcos darling n ya lan wan to buy a present for their fren yupp.at shaw hse guess we saw who is the i nt stupid the guy shawn ya.today outing was great haha better then before lovess it haha hope to go out with them again yupp.we went home at abt 3 going to 4pm haha.tmr i think take mid year exam results very scare will fail so i will pray hard lo if nt n level have to try even harder lo.sad for me haiish hope everyone will do well.haha.darling cheer up things will turn out good soon de=)quite happy with today outing with them.lovess it=)
hehe went to church jus now hehe so back to posting back le haha today the sermon for my church was very well done by the speaker, the sermon was super great tis wk yupp luckily i did nt miss tis wk church haha luckily can make it. the worship and sermon was super great really enjoy today church but i seat behind cos was late haha. was alone haha.today end quite late but was really super fun.haha.today sermon was abt putting god first before anything!!!lovess the sermon today atleast i understand abit of it haha.the worship song was great haha.tmr will be going out with darling sweetie they all hope will be more fun since exam already over so i think it will be a enjoyable time for us haha.yupp dinner went white sands to eat the carpark was full haha but my daddie manage to get a parking lot haha then eat le walk walk then when home lo so now posting lo.jus now my com cant get through the internet so now can le so post haha.
~thks darling for the help to change my blog song n can the word welcome to amanda's world thks oso for the help to create a blog for my sis thks to trouble u=)
hehe woke up today at 7 going to 8am jus to go sch to help out to pack the gb store so sian but was fun and tiring haha but no yet done haha so free so came to post and online lo wahaha nothing to talk le so gtg take a shower and prepare to go church le.actually dun feel like going but have to go no choice jus to help them.
~thanks darling for the help to change my blog song thks so much haha=)
=( here to post again.today is indeed a very sad day for me.i jus have a quarrel with my darling =( i read ur blog entries it really make me hurt.i did understand u i did nt blame for nt being there for me and nt talking to me i understand how u feel.actually i wanted to write a letter to u today de but i feel tat u are already so trouble so i nvr write.im really jus feel like dying.i nvr blame u i jus feel tat since u r sad i shld leave u alone and calm n cool down first but u think tat im blaming u but im nt.i was feeling sad too yesterday jus have a quarrel with my sister accidentally deleted her file then she very angry i talk to her she call me go away.im really sad too i cry and r u there for me?i really hurt by many things.yupp i think u have changed but i did nt mean tat kind of things.i did nt mean tat, is u anyhow think.why?i really very hurt by ur blog entries tat u type.is nt ur fault is my fault for blaming u im jus so USELESS, STUPID, HOPELESS PERSON to everyone im the trouble maker to you.i did nt really wanna hurt u but jus share my sorrows, trouble and problems with u but u think tat i mean tat, then is up to u.i jus hope tis year our friendship is better but it turn out a minderunderstanding.ya i noe u feel sad i understand.i always treat u the best and the precious but it turn out like tis i jus have to say if u think i shld leave u and give up on u then i will do wat u say but i have something to tell u i wanna be ur best buddy forever and be ur sweetie forever i will nvr leave u but if u wan me too i will.i jus have nothing to say le but i jus feel tat if i be with u i will jus add burden tat why i dun wanna trouble u but u think the other way i have no choice im really confused??i jus feel tat how could i wish i was nt exist in tis world. 1 important things to tell u is tat i really have the happiest times with u when even im happy or sad everytime i go out with u is the BEST, PRECIOUS, FUN AND HAPPIEST MOMENTS i have spend with u.really. 1 thing before i end i jus hope we can be best darling again.pls!!!!!!!!!!!sorry i did really mean to hurt u or say u but im jus feeling very hurt now sorry.....dun take it to ur heart....thks esther and kailing for the company i appreciate it really thks!thks ming yuan for comforting today will try to solve it de!sweetie darling jaslin rmb u are the best the precious and the wonderful fren i even spend my times with.cheer up sorry for today! i understand how u feel now............i nvr blame u jus hope our friendship will be better.................i jus a lousy and bad fren who ever be my fren will always suffer right? sorry ppl.......crying*im jus really sad and confused....wat shld i do?thks ppl for all of the concern, me and darling is alright now things started to improve le hope everything will be fine soon.yupp we promise each other to start anew and be good to each other lo then i oso hope our friendship will still be the PRECIOUS,CLOSEST AND THE BEST of all.hope darling problems will be fine too cheer up sweetie=)i quite happy now le but im still very sorry darling miss ya=)
hehe yepp today last day of paper im so happy but i think today both oral gotta fail.chinese alot of words un noe how to read then oso dun noe how to answer.the topic is abt enviroment and english quite easy but gt a feeling will fail tis time.haiish so sian so same to post lo.today end quite early bcos i was register number 1 then abt 9-930am jiu left sch le.then went back grandma hse at abt 10am then reach hoem rest for a while jui fell asleep le.haha was quite sian today slept twice haha lazy pig right.haiish tmr gt ne learning journey hope everyone will have fun tmr.haiish nothing to post le so shall end but jus one question why now some many ppl got some many problems eg friendship relationship and so on..... why i hope i can halp all of them.may god bless everyone...may everyone stay forever happy and smile always.
darling jaslin~cheer up im sure things will turn out good de believe me surely will de i will pray for u and ur family de=) see u smile u look much better darling have fun tmr=) feel free to tell me ur problems will be there to listen to u de.cheer up=)
im jus so sad now=( use com accidentally delete my sis file tat she so angry im really very hurt and sad why?why always me?is it my fault all the time i jus feel like crying and im very hurt....who is there for me.i say before whether im there or nt everyone is still very happy=(i really feel fool in everyone eyes.....cry i really sad no one understand me at all...wat shld i do????
hehe back to posting haha yepp exam finally over no need study le bcos tmr is oral haha.today was chinese paper listening compre and chinese paper 1 yupp i very scared i will fail gt a feeling will fail.haiish.exam over now is abt time to take results so scared.haiish.yupp no choice wat is done is done if did badly jus have to try even harder next time lo.haha i feel tat today chinese papers was soso for me alot of questions dun noe wrong or correct.hehe later going to amk and suntec with jaslin, kai ping, margaret, ya lan and edmund.haha after the papers went home then abt 11.15am going to meet ya lan and darling but i was quite late i heard tat meet 11.50am so i take my time in the end darling call me and ask me where im so i told her i was still at home then i so i quickly ate my lunch and run down reach the meeting place at abt 11.50am going to 12pm sorry guys.yupp then went to suntec to meet kai ping,was late then started walking to the place kai ping wan to go and buy her stuff then they all went long john sliver to eat their lunch.then went walk walk then went to amk and walk walk to. went to look for heels and bag in the end darling bought her shoes and handbag, kai ping bought her nike shoes bag and her stuffs, margaret and me bought toast box and yalan and edmund did nt buy anything.haha i saw alots of things i wan to buy at amk and suntec.will try to go there one fine day lo.haha then when home at abt 5 going to 6pm.bought toast box for grandma hope she will eat it.haha hope she like it too and appreciate too yupp.the outing was soso for me quite sian bcos gt me.i was quite sad and moody when we were on the mrt train and went home no mood to talk to anyone haiish wat has happen to me? haiish very sorry frens i told u tat if i go i will feel extra and will spoil the fun so the outing for most of them was not tat fun sorry guys.really sorry if it is my fault.told darling le tat she say is my own imagination but i jus feel tat it is my fault really sorry frens.but i hope to go out again.haha=)darling jaslin~cheer up im sure things will turn out gd soon.will pray for u and ur family de.cheer up bcos u told me too so u mus too.margaret~take care hope feel much better now.ur leg ok marx.slowly walk dun walk so fast.
hehe back to posting jus happen to use com so came to post.today actually nothing much happen is only there is maths paper 2 today, the paper was nt tat hard but the silly me went to do 2 question in section B see i so silly n stupid nvr read properly.sad for me.haiish today was a moody and sad day for me.feel tat im jus a fool nt important to anyone.sad.why?feel i will be separated with all my dearest frens?why do i have tis thinking?sad 4 me wat shld i do?darling told me is due to exam now so i hope so.then today mum told me tat grandma think tat something will happen 2 her.im soooo scare=( so i try 2 pray 2 god=) wat shld i do? i jus feel like crying at tis moment=( hope nthing will even happen to her.hope she will nt have tis kind of thinking anymore. i will try to peii her as much as i can to talk to her too.my mum oso told me tat she miss me and my slibing bcos quite a number of days nvr go to her hse le then my mum told me to talk to her so i try to talk to her and make her happy lo but still nt tat gd so im confused wat shld i do? really very very sad and worried for her=( feel so hopeless tat i did nt did much to help her but i will try again tmr n forever.hope it will work.then darling's msg make me feel slightly better.yupp thks darling for the help,cheering up and encouragement thks really appreciate all tat u have do for me thks you=)
im so sad and hurt by many things tat have happen after exam have start why? everytime i face tis kind of problems all i can is to post or cry wat else can i do? im really very sad=( im so useless all i do is to cry nvr try facing the problems.haiish 1 words to describle me 'SAD'=( jus feel tat no one is there is willing to listen to my problems im so sad and hurt=(
hehe exam paper today end at 9.30am so came to post my latest entries lo.hehe lol.today was eoa paper is was ok la atleast i manage to did it and complete it in time to hand in but then some question very hard until i was struggling at the question for very long luckily lo, but jus have to wait for all my exam results to come out.haiish saying abt exam results im really very scared wat shld i do?haha today paper was quite tough but manage to overcome it le haha the toughest paper have complete then now still left 2 more papers and an english and chinese oral to take lo. haha jus have to wait for 2 more paper and english and chinese oral to end then i can be free la haha.anyway oso hope i will do well in my last 2 paper and english and chinese oral.hehe.ok gtg study le bcos tmr gt maths paper 2 ok jia yo everyone take care=)
hehe back to update again.hehe jus now was feeling very sad and down bcos feel extra and unimportant to anyone.haiish even if im there or nt there everyone is still so happy.so sad.haiish but thks to dearest darling msg.and studying for very long and very tired still not yet done so i think have to go study last part le.then 4pm yonger sis came back n was hungry and she make sweet corn for me and for herself.thks darling sis.ok gtg.jia yo everyone contiune to study and nvr ever to give up.
hehe hey to post bcos happen to peep in my blog haha.haiish almost finish my revision for eoa but still cant rmb some haiish im really very pek chek and stress.haiish have to see whether i will do well in my eoa tmr lo.very scared but jus have to pray.haha yesterday whole day was studying nvr go church and at nite went to catch a movie.guess wat movie is tat?????..............it is Spiderman 3.haha the movie is sooooo nice.love it wan to watch again haha.the movie ticket time was 9.30pm then we watch until 12pm haha but wan very very nice.hope to catch again.hehe.then today mother'day celebration my mum prepare steamboat for us haha.thks my dearest mummy.thks darling mummy for all the wonderful things u have done for me.no matter hope expensive the present i buy for u it still cant pay for all the wonderful things tat u have done for me.thks mummy love u forever and ever.my love for u is fovever everlasting.love ya soooooo much mum!ok gtg study le take care everyone.
Happy Mother' Day!=)
hehe here to post actually nthing to post quite sian now so boring.today reach sch at 10+am so sian we go sch ppl go home sian.end our exam paper at 11.50am then went home.today maths paper was soso i think nvr do well.haiish nvm wat is done cant be done again.haiish jus wait for all my results to come out.haiish very scared.nvm jus have to wait.quickly exam end really stress.actually today came home nvr study at all only sleep.haha.nthing much to post le ok gtg=)
take care all my dear frens jus cant wait for exam to finish and go out with all of u again.nvm lets wait together a few more paper we will be able to have fun again.haha.jaslin gurl cheer up rmb u say 1 failure dun means forever will fail.i believe u can done it.wat is done is done.lets jus wait for our exam results.if we really did badly for our exam we have to try harder for N level.jus hope we will get good grades=)take care everyone jia yo soon exam will end le.hehe=)
hehe back here to post.today woke up at abt 10am bcos wan to go out with darlings they all then she msg me and tell me meet at 1pm i told her cant bcos gt church thingy at 4.30pm so mus leave amk hub at 3pm so i dun think can make it l0 so tell her.then now posting later go study lo.so sad cant go with darlings they all.miss them.miss talk to her=)haiish jus no mood to study why gt headache almost every single day?haiish so stress.ok gt to stop maybe later post again=)take care have fun darlings even without me there take care=)will miss ya guys=)hehe tmr nd to go sch to take eoa practical then our class boys no need come sch so good lo haiish.
hehe hey ppl happen to post bcos now free=)btw yesterday was our 1st day of mid-year exam.yesterday was eng paper 1 & 2.haiish paper 1 was super hard gt a feeling will fail.haiish but atleast paper 2 nt tat hard only some parts haha=)ya dismiss at 11.40.hehe early right. today was cpa paper it was quite easy only some parts difficult lo hope will pass all my exam papers.then today let off at 9.19am super early lo.hehe.then now posting lo just a while then later maybe study lo.today and yesterday like got the same feeling like im a fool to everyone....feeling confused and feel tat im nt tat important to them why???no one understand me tat well haiish and exam jus started very stress almost everyday gt headace.why?is it too stress up?haiish=(dear frens~exam has jus started may u all pass with flying colours.jia yo nu li=) hope everyone will do well for all the exam papers.jia yo believe u can de=)
margaret~take care of ur health,drink lots of water.
jaslin's sister and jaslin~cheer up dun so sad im sure things will be fine and soon improve de=)cheer up dun so sad le every1 is really very worry for u=) cheer up gurls=) hope to see the happy gurls soon=)
Happy 16th Birthday Vincent(guo rong)!!
may all ur dreams come true and all the best for mye!!jia yo=)
sry did nt make a card anyway really hope u like e shared present after all=)hehe:)
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at abt 2.30pm meet my elder sis at tampines mall to go ikea.was late for abt 15mins bcos feel alseep and cant find my belt.hehe was sad.actually receive a call fr sis first then she told me tat she in the quene for the shuttle bus le then i late she come out of the quene le like very angry.why? really feel very sad feel tat wat if i did nt exist in this world all things wont turn out tat bad haiish luckily gt darling jaslin to share my problems.haha.then reach tm give her a call meet her at the shuttle bus pt then she say a bus jus left then have to wait for another 30mins then she say she dun feel like going le at tat time i was really mad and really sad almost burst out in cry but gt darling jaslin msg.really thks darling.then sis eat finish she wanted to go ikea then was lucky can catch the shuttle bus to ikea. so lucky or else she will be angry with me de.lucky=)
then the whole trip during ikea was fun bought many things.sis was to groom her room tat why when there to take a look.but was really fun and tired.haha=)then when home and put down the things then went for cell mtg at simei. the cell mtg was soso.at first we wait at the simei mrt then no one was there then receive a call fr cell leader.then he told us to go to his condo so off we went then there were still some ppl nt there yet.then abt 7-8pm then start cell.cell was ok la then chat,worship and pray then when home at 10-11pm.
~hehe on the way to take shuttle bus guess who i saw at tampines mrt control station?it fr our sch de?actually is han zong,xuan li and his f4-2 fren.hehe was so shocked tat i saw them hehe.they wear sch uniforms and his f4-2 fren wear home clothes. i think they have jus finish there ss exam paper maybe tat why they wear uniforms.hehe so conincidence.hehe was really shocked tat i saw them.actually i was nt the 1 who saw them it was my sis.hehe=)did nt say hi jus happen to look at each other lo=)they were like waiting for someone.hehe=)shock hehe lols=)
